Here I am 28 fukin yrs old never thought I'd be at this point at this age. I'm in college still got 2yrs left. I've got no real friends, no girlfriend. I can handle it most of the time but sometimes it gets to me. I feel like I'm going 2 fukin explode but that would be meaningless so I don't. I just keep all this bottled up. I don't like american culture, people in america are all a bunch of brain washed pussies. The media dictates how they think. Its so pathetic and disheartening that ppl are all so stupid. I don't want to die I just want my life to be good for once. I feel like a meaningless leaf getting blown around in the wind.I've been chasin my dream my whole life. Yet I'm always poor and alone. I live like a fukin gypsy my whole life. I'm tired of this sht. I wish someone just give me a sht load of money for no apparent reason. I just want to travel and explore the world. Fuk american values. I don't want to work for some rich prick in my life. Bustin my ass to make him rich.I have no outlet for my anger. Its just inside...killin me.all these rich happy people make me sick. I jus wanna walk by and knock em out one by one. I feel like an animal in captivity sometimes. I'm just a piece to the puzzle that just doesn't fit. All I ever wanted was just a good chic and live in a place with fresh air trees mountains etc. I never cared about being rich or having a lot of material stuff and I still don't. However I can't seem to attract women anymore. I'm nice work out etc but I'm broke haha. I'm not the best lookin guy either. Probably mediocre. I. Feel like I was supposed to be somethin special in my life and I aint sht.all I ever wanted was the simple things in life. All I've ever been handed are problems. I jus don't understand this anymore.