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Posted by the recluse at July 4, 2011
Tags: Attitude  2011 July

my story,

Even on my first day of school in 1995 (I'm now 21) i knew i wasn't cut out for the social scene, as if predicting the future the next 10 yrs were a living hell. I was bullied emotionally and physically almost every day of my school life for no reason i could understand. I prayed for a day i could get through without being taunted or attacked but that rarely happened, and not much has changed since then.

I'm not overweight, and would consider myself to be decent looking so i know i haven't been picked on for those reasons, yet those attributes haven't helped me find a girlfriend or indeed any friends for that matter. The only friends I've ever had always end up abandoning me in the end which really does hurt considering i invest a lot of time and effort into them. I really dont know what people think of me when i talk to them but I've been told im funny, smart and "nice", but that's probably BS. I stayed away form drugs and alcohol for as long as i could but eventually i gave up. Whats the point in being sober if it means constant agony?.

I just get the feeling that everyone has it better than me, most of my "friends" are in relationships and have a great social lives yet there actual character is no better than mine. As if to make matters worse i dont even have a family i can depend upon and spend most of my days smoking weed and sitting at my computer in the hope that i may one day have an epiphany that might shake me out of this depression. I could write a book about all the injustices I've suffered in life but I wouldn't want to waste anyone's time so let me close by saying that to those who feel as i feel not to give up!, keep living in your dream world if it makes you happy and keeps you from killing yourself because the truth is WE are the TRUE individuals on this planet and for that reason alone, life is worth living


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By anonymous at 07,Aug,11 10:01

its kind of a sad stroy but not that much, how ever you are the actor of that story and i am sure it hurts you so much. esspecially childhood of your life should be awful being bullied without e reason and wondering THA reason is sucks.

i am sure you still see that years at your dreams(nigth mares) what ever you are so young and you have the power to do what you want .

frist of all fall in love wih sth and dedicate your life to it.

i ve fell in love with physics(science) and dedicated my life to it.

u should find sth too . its the only solution.


By anonymous at 07,Aug,11 22:40

I know what it means to be bullied every day at school. Human are baleful, unhappy, cruel apes.
You know what men and women are like beneath the mask of politeness, why desire a 'social' life?
Read Schopenhauer, Kant and buddhist scripture. Stay away from drugs and porn. They'll just make you even more miserable in the long term.


By anonymous at 11,Aug,11 21:34

I implore you to print out what you have written here and bring it to the emergency room. You sound like you are in serious danger of killing yourself. I speak from experience: with medication and/or talk therapy you CAN feel happiness one day. And if you kill yourself, you won't get a chance to feel happy and I guarantee you will absolutely devastate at least dozens of people, some that you would never even imagine would care, beyond all belief. they will carry the burden of the pain that you are feeling for a very very long time. the grief that you will leave them with will be the worst and most complex type. they will be wracked with guilt and questions and sadness that they weren't good enough to help you in your darkest hour. and when they aren't blaming themselves--this in the midst of a terrifying grief and shock due to your untimely death-they will start to blame others in an unfair way. If you can't get help for you-please do it if you give even the tiniest shit for anyone else.


By anonymous at 12,Aug,11 19:59

I was once depressed and thought very little of myself. Then I heard these, and got an epiphany:

http://sermons2.redeemer.com/sermons/man-king-delights-honor
http://sermons2.redeemer.com/sermons/sickness-unto-death

Yeah, they are sermons, but even if you aren't religious, I think they point out some of the thoughts that aren't helpful and keep you depressed and wasting time. It sounds like you've got time, so next time you are sober, give them a listen. They will, at the very least, get you thinking. That might lead to an epiphany. This is seriously the best thing I can give you.


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