I'm only 17 and life been sucking so far.I Hate my dad, my step mom, my step sister, and most of all, my brother. My brothers a real douche-bag, Really stuck-up and ignorant. And because we are twins, apparently everyone thinks hes the better one. I'm going into my senior year of high school and it hasn't gotten any better than the last 3 years..I have very few friends, and sometimes eat alone or with my brother and his friends. But i just hate it, i hang with them at lunch so i won't be alone. No one knows my name or who i am, i'm just "twin" to them, or "who is that guy?". Even when I've been going to school with them for years. At first my grades were horrible, but now my grades are "Okay", but i still then i can do a lot better. My School life just really sucks...My dad is terrible, he says a lot of promises but will always break them, ALWAYS. I don't even know why i even get my hopes up. For example, it was my birthday, and i ask for a 60$ skateboard, I never ask for anything. We are a fairly poor family. He says "okay, ill get it". I ask him a week in advance. 4 months later he buys it for me, only because my real mom complained. Some times, i just think when i wake up in the morning, my life would magically change. I can't stop thinking that, even when i know that it's not going to change. Just one day, that ill wake up and go outside and walk, and find that one girl, my dream girl. Finding a girl i actually like is hard. I don't like your typically girls. The one s that dress all girly and cute, or has "perfect perfect" hair. Just a really cool, outgoing, Different type of girl. Different is the word i truly hold onto. But all the girls at my school are either, taken, stuck-up as hell, or their all the same, every single one of them.I think i need to start fresh, but i can't. This may seem weird, but i look up the girls i like on youtube, it sounds really weird actually, but i mean, i like girls that skateboard, but there are RARELY any where i live, or anywhere. i live in a uncommon state. And i think, after watching them, threes hope of my finding a girl like that. I felt like using this example. But i really think that's impossible for me. I'm trying to write a story, but i can't get the feeling i feel inside, i don't think anyone really understands what i feel. I try to put myself in that story, and compare myself in real life. It works for a while, but then reality just hits me in my face. I honestly don't know what to do anymore. I love reading these stories on here, its just makes me glad to see that I'm not the only one. Theres alot more, but i doubt people really care, well thanks for reading. | |
I honestly can't fully describe how your story touches me...but thanks, for letting me believe that guys like you are out there...& maybe one day, I hope I find one.
About your dream girl. I understand how you feel. I just wanted a girl who liked me as a person and understood me. I found my one and only, but I'm never going to see her again. No she didn't reject me she moved away the day I was gonna get her phone number. She doesn't have a facebook account.
I hope you never have to experience that. It feels like youre being torn in half.
My family think i'm dumb yet they expect me to do well in school cos THEY did. I study as hard as I can yet I panic in tests and can't do anything. I play squash and play on videogames now. That and studying. I'm 14 years old and I now get bullied. My sister has it easy. She's popular, yet she's a whiny little bitch. She moans about the smallest things and all her friends act like whores.
I want my Chloe back. I need her back.
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