Right now I wish there had been someone standing there when I was 18 years old to slap me in the face and scream "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?!?!?!"
I thought I was so in love with the man that I am now married to and have been with since I was sixteen. We both love each other but its hard not resenting each other.
I'm now 22 and pregnant with no job, no money, and no future prospects. I quit college because I thought it was a waste of my time. I have a high risk pregnancy because I had cancer when I was 17, and even though I really don't want to admit it, I really really do not want this child. I feel like I'm an evil bitch to my husband because I'm so unhappy with my life. We fight way to much. I had a chance when I was 18 to do something I really loved but turned it down because it would have taken me away from my now husband. I feel so stupid and alone and unhappy, and always anxious because I have no money to pay on my maxed out credit card- or any other of my own bills. Now with this kid on the way, I'm stuck with this life for multiple years until I can find some way to go back to college. But I can never go back and do what I really wanted before all this. My chance is gone for good.
And so- back to real life in this cramped, drab apartment every day, with nothing to do and no one to talk to.