LIFE SUCKS

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Can't fail any harder than this.

you have explained whats going wrong. it seems you dont know why its going wrong. if your family is orthodox and not supportive in a conservative muslim country, you have genuine problems. you have to choose between career and family and make peace with your decision. I would suggest you choose your dreams. Your family will probably come around eventually and if they dont, you can be 100 percent certain you made the right choice. If other people and society mean more to them than your happiness then for all practical purposes you have no family. However if you are to chicken to follow your dreams then its a created problem and only you can help yourself. If you try, you may fail, if you dont you have failed allready. There are no magic pills for self-beleif, you have to develop it risking defeat. Hope this helps. Unless you have a big belly some guys like fuller women with a rounder figure. there is a type for everyone. there is a type for everyone. Most women are beautiful in their own way, so dont obsess of you dont have a slim figure. You need to beleive in yourself, it would be pathetic if this blog becomes your life

This will sound blunt, but it's the truth: as long as you are not very overweight, it's ok, but if you are really round and chubby, you just don't look attractive to most guys (I know, because I'm a guy). Even though once they get to know you, they might fall in love with your personality, your chances of getting to that stage are very slim (no pun intended) because the primary criteria that guys use when deciding on which girls to try to befriend, sadly, is their looks. You don't have to be a stunning blonde beauty, and you don't have to have the body of a supermodel, but you should be at least average. Everything after that is optional.

Therefore, my advice to you is to stop eating so much chocolate and what not, even though it makes you happy (it was proven scientifically) and actually do something to make yourself happy. Such as living a more physically active life, going for walks, maybe even jogging (by the way, jogging is not an ideal exercise for weight loss, it's only good for prevention of weight gain). Once you start loosing weight, you will be much more happy with yourself, and because of that many other things will also become easier. Don't overdo it though :), anorexic girls are not pretty, they are worse than fat ones I think. Stop postponing and thinking "I'll do things when I loose weight". Just loose the weight. If you start tomorrow, a year from now, if you put in the effort, you can have a smoking hot body. Oh, just watch out for the nasty guys who will just want you for your looks then :).

And as for your family... What exactly could happen :)? You have two choices, stay with them forever until your parents die of old age (as we all will), and when that happens you will be pretty old yourself, or don't :). Which is it that you want more? Whatever you choose, you will have to sacrifice something, so they are both equally difficult choices, therefore there is no pressure in choosing one or the other, hence it's an easy choice- do what you want (and in your case I think you want to leave for Europe).

By the way, I'm 20 and I never had a girlfriend :). It's because I'm shy, introverted and have a minor deformity on my body that makes me very self conscious and even more shy. So which do you think is easier to fix, loosing some weight, or changing the personality that is encoded in your very genes :)? It's not all that bad. Good luck!

You Seem like A Really Sweet person to be around. I Personally believe that You should just enjoy the things you love to do, stop caring about what other people think or what guys think. There is one guy out there for every girl and he will come looking for you when you least expect it. All you gotta do live life with a smile on your face and show the world that your Confident and glad your the way you are. If your weight really bothers you then do something to try and fix it, but if you can't then the best you can do is accept it. Your pretty driven and seem like you have a lot going for you. Don't let the wrong things get in the way of your dreams and future!(:
If you ever want to talk email me at AnneAnn1996@yahoo.com
Im Anne btw,(:

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