I'm 22yo guy. I look cool and quite attractive. I used to be very fit and was a model for magazines. I've had so many frds in my teenage. I always went bar and hooked up with gals. Then at some point of the time, I felt tired of socializing with all these people. All they do is drinking and finding someone to fuck like brainless creatures. I chose to leave nearly all of them, except two or three who are my best frd cos we had experienced so much in the past.
Now in my uni life, I got less and less frds. I did know a lot of people in first year, but now I just feel that I'm unable to keep a friendship or develop a real friendship anymore. I feel there isn't much interesting thing to do or talk about. I like to think and observe. And with my past bing popular experience I start to think that everyone is after some reason. I know how life run. How the world run. I sometime still go parties and many people talk to me there. But outside parties I'm so alone. I have a gf for years. But I know too much about her, more than she know herself. I know she will leave me sometime in future. She just hasn't played enough.
Yes there are some people tried to reach me and will give their real heart. But those are just not playful enough for me. However I cant trust Those who are playful enough cause they are just as smart as me and everything they do is just after some reasons. Actually I found myself is just one of them. The only difference is, While I still go parties, I like learning the Universe, the truth of life. I can't say I'm superficial, but I see things throughly. On the other hand, I found that what I looking for is only pure childish happiness. Like playing childish games with my gf, staring the sky and feel the life of trees, the flow of clouds and appreciated that we are still alive healthily.
I feel that although I still like parties and look for hot gals, I'm a very old man inside. I feel so lonely. I know what I can talk with peers are just cars, career, gals, money. But I want someone to truly understand me. I feel that now I'm too tired to pretending an "usual playful funny young guy". What's wrong with me? Am I sick? Have I been think in the wrong way? | |
I lost interest in many things. I broke up with my boyfriend because I did not feel that he'd understand about me. I don't socialise with many people anymore because it makes me feel so tired. Now, I don't have many friends and may be soon will lose them since they're gonna move to other places to work. I feel so alone and afraid that no one can understand me.
I lost interest in many things. I broke up with my boyfriend because I did not feel that he'd understand about me. I don't socialise with many people anymore because it makes me feel so tired. Now, I don't have many friends and may be soon will lose them since they're gonna move to other places to work. I feel so alone and afraid that no one can understand me.
I UNDERSTAND YOU :) Completley i'm the same as you but 24.. I travel around the world now searching for something.. I'm still not sure what.. I feel very empty and confused.. Lonely, yet i want to be on my own.. but then i dont
Oh life why do you confuse me so!
olivia306@hotmail.com email me if you want :)
I think you should be an inventor or scientist. It will fill the hollow thing inside. You're independent, so enjoy your freedom anyhow.
People always tell me that I ground them and I think it's true. I feel that I have an ability to connect to most on the very basic level that cuts through superficiality.
To the people who are being rude and saying that this poster should not be unhappy with his life: everyones experiences are different. People agonize over materialistic/ temporary/ long term/ spiritual/ intellectual you name it, things. Does not mean that one agony is stronger then the other, they're just different. Please respect everyone's experiences.
By the way just to give you a bit background im 23, graduated college a year ago, live along, work in advertising. Have moved around a lot during my life.
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