well im 19 this year... and fro the record i hate myself and i have being me.. well for one, im the only child in my family and my parents expect alot from me, well im the oni 1 so by rite im suppose 2 do well and bring up the family name, well i was always doing great in school bt at the year end exams for my high school, i juz screwed up, i din do well at all, so my parents were forced to send me to a private college where, either the drop outs make it der or the rich and the famous make it der, well my parents spent alot educating me der adn once agian i took it easy n just screwed up for the finals, but however i was still excepted into a private university to continue my education and due to the lack of money dat my parents faced, they had 2 take a study loan to pay up the fees, and here i am sitting infront of my old laptop which i had for years, whcih dun even funtion well enough which i alwyz brought 2 college where every1 laughed at.. it was hurting bt well i got tru it, and now just few weeks b4 i move away frm home off to university my parents are yet agian struggling to buy the afew thngs for uni, like a new laptop, a new phone and more other things, and thinking bout hw badly ive done all my life in exams and just wasting my parents hard earn money, i just feel so bad. my alwyz knew i wanted a macbook which as we all noe cost alot, bt here he stood infront of me saying "i know u want it sweetheart, no matter hw hard i'll save up enough to gt u 1 b4 u go off 2 college" WELL SO YEA IT JUST SUCKS BEING ME!! SEEING ALL DIZ AND JUST NOT BEING ABLE 2 HELP OUT!! im sorry.... =( | |
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