i dont even know where to start.. when i was little my family was happy we could afford anything we wanted nobody was yelling at home but now our lives are totally different.. we dont have any money we are poor as shit nobody is happy but the most unhappy person in the family is me.. high school made my life a living hell im bullied all the time im really sick and tired of that i want to stand up for my self but there is something in me that is holding me back i want to do something more in my life but i cant im a total loser i have no friends i never go out and im just 17 im depressed all the time every word can hurt me and i cry like crazy for everything my personality has changed im yelling at everybody my parents always yells back at me that i have to change but its easy to be said but not easy to be done sometimes i wish i wasnt even born... every other person i know is just so happy they are all smiling and i wish i was like them maybe they have problem too but they dont show that they are not happy but i that kind of person that always shows what i feel like i suffer from social anxiety thats the reason why i have no friends.. 10 minutes ago my mom came to my room and she said if i wanted to take my dog for a walk and i said no and i said that this morning i took it for a walk and i said that she can take the dog out and she started crying and yelling at me " why are you doing this to me you are driving me crazy" and she always takes pills to calm down...
im writing this with tears in my eyes wondering will i wake up the next morning i just want to commit suicide right now.. |
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