LIFE SUCKS

shit

well as you are about to see i cant really spell well or any of that shit but that's not the point.I cant take it anymore every 5 min its a new problem and i don't tell anyone about how much my life sucks because then that just makes it worse i have tried.I have found out how terrible people really are because the one times i asked my friends to help me they basically told me to fuck myself even tho i helped one with his drug problem and the other with his parents getting split.I hate my hole family because i am the youngest and they all would fuck with me when they were mad and i don't mean playing around and seeing my dad 1 time every 2 to 4 years is not fun.When your mom tells you her life sucks because of you its hard to deal with no matter who you are but thats not all there was one time that she told me she got molested as a child just to make me feel bad.i never let my anger get out of control but at some points i have to let some out because i do nothing all day really nothing but somehow manage to get into more shit and when i get a little mad everyone freaks out and says i need to control it better or im crazy and need help which just gets me more mad.This lovely story has been told to me a couple of times by my family(i don't like calling them family but i have to put a label on it) its about my dads first son long story short he was a baby that got left in the bath tub and died,i have never seen my dad truly smile because of that.i could go on forever with shit like this i wish i couldn't but i can ,i will stop here tho because its hard to not want to kill myself when i think about my life