Sorry for my poor English. I never was successful in any meaning, nor in school nor the real life outside. In my early years I remember my father to beat me and to make terrible fights against me and my brother. I never was happy or felt REAL happiness (short period of time laughing is not considered to be happy) so I never was really happy. In early years in school I always got in troubles I even got accused of stealing which I never did. In high school things went worse. My fights with my parents gone worse and until now I can't stand them and they don't like me. They love my 2 little brothers but me and my older brother are hated by them. I never had alot of friends in the last two years I had none or only 1 true friend. I'm his only friend. We both are unhappy about this situation. I'm not trying to get new friends because I had already a bad friends, they never remember to call me when they hang out so I decided if people dont want to be my friends so I don't want to be their friend. I brought average grades from school but when I brought high grades even then my parents never said a true nice word, it always went to a screaming fight on nothing. My father is always angry, he got a really angry issues. He never said but I know, he works in a work which he hates and he only do it because of the money. My mom is always for his side (ofcourse). My big brother is kind of me, not a successful in social life. Today is the day which we fly to a vacation which supposed to be fun. But my big brother and my dad went to a terrible fight because of this vacation, I really don't care if I stay at home but it's so depressing when people asking you:"how was the vacation" and you know you stayed at home. I always felt misrable and lonely, I never felt life is worth living. I hate everything, just want to die peacefully so no one will remember me.
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