i'm a boy of 16, pretty young to say that MY LIFE SUCKS FUCKING HARD
i'm having a decease, i have a phobia of the outside world, never had a gf, never had sexual experience, no hugs or kisses, i'm not the best looking or baddest looking, i think ill die as a virgin, i don't wanna wham some whore/slut
i just jack off everytime i'm alone
due to my decease i can't get a job so no money
i have like 0-1 zero friends, the only thing i do is stuck at my computer chair like glue..
at school i'm a loner, people bully me, think that i'm a weirdo, and i don't belong to anywhere
don't get me wrong i look normall like anyone but i feel that i'm just different
i don't realy have a close bond with family so i can't realy rely on them
i suck at school, suck at everything, i have no talents, life sucks without
having a gf, i fail, you think this is nothing but when you would stand inside my shoes you would understand
the world is hell,
ive done self harm, ive been controlled by people they used me
i smoke swishers overdose it till i can't even stand up and faint
i always stay at home, doing nothing and thinking about it's the same day again
how long with this keep on going?
i have depressions almost everyday, when bed time i can't sleep becouse there is too much going on, i cry like a whimpy kid to sleep, and when i sleep i hope i never wake up becouse in my dreams it's my wonderland where I CAN MAKE THINGS HAPPEN