My Life...what do i say i am little slow that means i am not bad compared to others but my parents never knew that ..my mom use to think that i am a bad luck in her life she use to scold me always for that , still when i remind about those scolding’s there are Tears in my eyes when I was in school i never had friends @ all i hardly use to speak with people. Whenever there was a discussion about any Trip or Picnic in my class i never use to listen i was doing my job silently ..bse i knew that i will never get permission from my mom & i never asked them also I never participated in any events in my school or college life but I use to help my sister in it & she has won many prizes also but its all against to my mom ‘s now I am 27 & whenever I sung any song my colleague asks me why didn’t i became a singer???? Hmmmm that’s life & I was alone So…. I have a brother also who is living his life as a king I am happy for him I love him a lot he had got everything he wanted from the childhood may be he had carried that Luck with him from god here I am not complaining against anyone for anything as its life given to me by God ...but still i never gave up anything i did my BSC Comp.Sc & a Post graduation Diploma degree in Comp Appl. Graduation with 1st class marks I love my mom only for the support she gave me in my Education nothing else. I came to a city Called BANGALORE in Sep 2006 where people come with lots of dreams & dreams & dreams but I didn’t had any dream I just wanted a job that’s it to show my mom & dad Even their badluck daughter can get a Salary ..my dad use to say “I can’t earn I will never get a Job he can write this in a bond paper with his signature” how sad but time hmmmm it always changes dear I got a job in Dec 2006 I started giving salary to my mom now she thinks I am also Lucky to her then I understood People Just love money nothing else & that’s true ther’s nothing wrong in it as u cant survive without money….This is the fifth year of my Professional life now I have a dream, I had become ambitious, & also I have friends but still I am not happy….bse still I am alone
My younger sister got married before me (my marriage biggest mistake of my life.) it was my cousin who married to her he was not as educated as me but still I was Rejected by him as I am not good looking compared to my sister…she got married in 2006 before I started my career. I was happy because someone’s rejection had given me an opportunity to prove myself ..my marriage I was married to a person who rejected me after the Engagement ceremony my parents they thought I ‘ll never get a boy as I am not good looking I decided that day itself I am not going to love this person at all in my whole life
Finally he married me after a long fight with my relatives & parents , as in India a marriage can’t be broken after Engagement ceremony as it is an Insult I got married nearly before 2 years he use to fight with me for everything he is just opposite to me in everything he never got a small chocolate also for me I never expected it but still somewhere I was looking something but I never got anything even he had slapped me several times I am HR in a US Comp people gives me so much of respect but here I am getting slaps from a person who is not well educated also & who is not equal to me in anything ..now I am fedup i decided to leave him I am no more with him I just hate that person like anything…….
I never told my story to anyone just wanted to write a dairy but couldn’t ..scared of that also because as I never wanted anyone to read it
(Readers I am sorry if I have made you boar)
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I think your parents may have thought of you bad luck coz you are the first born daughter? I'm making a huge guess coz you stated you are from India. I'm sorry if i guessed wrong. but my point is the fact that they have called you that growing up would definitely leave a scar on you. don't take their words seriously and move on. do something do something for yourself. spoil yourself!!! get a makeover, shopping, take a vacation. you deserve it. with your intelligence you can go very far. you don't need to take abuse. someone will see you happy and they will want to know you
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