The title explains it all, huge family that all hates eachother, ravaged by drugs and alcohol. My dads so unbelievably insensitive and critical of everything I do I just want the man to tell me he's proud of me, he never has once. But do I deserve it? No, I want it because I'm selfish. I'm a fuckin' loser. I dropped out because I'm pathetic and couldn't make it through a horribly simple and dumbed down education system. A girlfriend? Forget it, I am selfish in that area too, just because I'm hideous doesn't mean I am attracted to someone else who is hideous. I've got a small dick, and I'm meek to all tits.
But wait, there's more!
Aside from me living with 9 people and having absolutely 0 relationship with any of them, I also lost my job because I'm a miserable failure in that area too. The closest thing I had to happiness was fuckin' around behind my back and when I caught her the solution was to tell me how shit I was.
News flash, you dumb cunt, I KNOW HOW SHIT I AM. Just because a guy is a worthless loser doesn't mean you should creep around behind his back, leave the guy, fuck!! It's not like I had anything to offer her, she had nothing to lose, the only thing she wanted from me was whatever little cash I could scrounge up at my last shit job, she gave good dome though.
Where do you go from here, too old to be in your parents house, out of work with no education. Trying to find another job and get the hell out of this state but it isn't exactly working out in my favor.
I am honest to god considering stuffing a backpack with clothes and forking up the little cash I have left on a bus ticket, to start anew. Thoughts?