ok this is my first time iam sharing my story online on a blog... just wana share it thats alll.i got no 1 in my life that realy from childhood ever holded me.Iam just alwayzz on my laptop spending time just to ignore my past feeling and stories i nver shard my feeling to ani 1 well i did i had a GF which i realy realy dammed loved her soo much i loved her so much that ...dat loved which i gav no 1 eva did to me even my own real mother did not father well roming wid other girl once... whn i was in class 6ix me and my sister reachd home ...haha well b4 that my mother and myself and my sister used to play games whn we reach home like hide and seek my mother used to hide when we come home,and once we reached home and was looking for my mother we looked for her everywhere, but she dint come suddenly my father came and lied to us that our mother went for sum function den weeks past by my sister sudenly left me and den i relised dat my mother left me for real and den my father left me i startd living wid my (Gparents)welll dat was kull 4..a week and den i relised dat i was nver loved cuz my mother alwayz used to love my sister used to ignore my i dont know what i did i was a small kid and now itss beeen 6years wid out my parents.i was never ment to b love by ani 1
well i see my friends evrytime hapy in der own life .i come home and think of how dey go home dey meet der parents,and like evry night i just cry til morning i cant go off to sleep cuz its like a hav nothing in my life its just me and my laptop thats all,i used to pray to god that sum day i might get a (GF) in my life like my other friends have 1,and she also might love me dat love which i was looking for since childhood but i guesss im not lucky like other guys and other people im just a big L(ooooser) ever.cuz that is how im made no 1 even ..well wht can i say i got a long story im not sure who will read mine and like at least tel me that i can be yur friend like a girl i mean but i know im not made like that im just fulll of pain inside sumtimes at night i cry and wid my nail i tap my heart slowly that sumday mayb aday will cum dat ill R.I.P and dat is da time ill wil stop crying,well no girl evn cars abt me ,,wht can i say to myself ,dat my real mother dint evn cre abt me my real father dint a girl i dont think so NEVER , im just a waste on dis round big ball (earth)... | |
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