I guess the word natural is not a known word to me. I do not know what natural is. I have never known anything natural.
Nothing comes natural to me.
I do everything I can to get into a tier one fraternity. Somehow although I am a part of it, I feel as if I don’t belong.
I work my ass off to make a 4.0. I was in the library almost every weeknight. No one congratulates me on my grades.
Although I show up to all functions and social gatherings in my fraternity not one person has asked me to hangout since pledgeship.
My ex-girlfriend drank so much she blacked out and slammed the freezer door in my face while I was getting meat out of the fridge. Why? I don’t fucking know. She then called the cops on me and banned me from ever being on her property and told me she never wants to leave me again.
I cannot act in a social environment in the same manner as normal people.
I cannot get the positive attention I desire to have from my own parents and piers.
I cannot have a normal relationship with a girl.
Having a life is not natural to me.
Hit me with the fridge
Told me “I never want to see you again”
When I told Katie that I would be okay just talking to my brothers, she says, “What? It’s not like they’re your friends.”
-That was literally the same day as when I confessed to her earlier that I was having trouble fitting in with them. Lowest. Blow. Ever.