LIFE SUCKS

Missing him

After reading some of the stories on this website I have to say I am no where close to having such a crummy life as others. I'm not going to talk about my family life or anything because that is not what's stressing me out at this point in my life. Six months ago I was doing great. I was living with the love of my life and enjoying every second I spent with him. Then one day it all ended. He just didn't want to work things out anymore. He was through with me and told me that I had to move out. After spending three years with him I never expected this to happen. All of our friends said that they wish they could have the same relationship that him and I had. I don't know what happened, but all I know is that I still love him very much. I can't help it. He made me feel more special then even my family ever made me feel. Tomorrow is his birthday and I can't even decide whether I should send him a message saying happy birthday or not. How did it come to this? I know I have to move on, but all I want is to see his smile and feel his cheek against mine again. Ugh, oh well I know one day I will look back on our memories and smile, but all I can do when they randomly enter my head throughout the day is hold back the tears. Thanks for listening.