I just want to remind everyone to come here to vent when they feel depressed, Chances are those who care about you enough and would actually help you out arn't even aware how seriously depressed you are.
My dear, old friend Mark commited suicide at the end of Febuary this year, I had lost contact with him over 3 of years, I got busy in my own life having children but always thought once my oldest reached kinder age I'd have more time to get back in contact with my close mates.
If he had of called me or I had any idea he felt that way or was going to do it, I would of done anything in my power, I hope my other friends would come to me, I've learnt a huge lesson in presuming people will still be there when it suits me. I'm disgusted by myself, I got so lost in my own life, and the saddest thing of all in Mark commiting suicde, is the fact when I was 18 he stopped me from commiting suicide. He saved my life when I didn't want to be saved but in time had my children and became so greatful to of been saved. He hangs himself, all alone with out warning and I who owed him so much was too wrapped up in my own world, I presumed he had it all together, the last person I ever expected to suicide.
When I was depressed and suicidal I could never of imagined ever feeling happy again, I do get sad and have down moments and it is hard to hold out for the light sometimes, and usually putting my issues aside and helping someone else who feels the same as me out brightens the world and I see what truly matters.
Other things that cheer me up is making to do lists such as 1: Teach myself palmistry online(for fun) 2. Bungy jumping 3.learn to enjoy my own company, go to the movies alone 4. get a small tattoo that has no meaning just to feel alive 5.Buy a christmas card for the lady at the milkbar just to show her your greatful for the long hours she works 7.Enter competitions more often, got to be in it to win it 8. write a novel 9. Go to a foo fighters concert etc.
They are just afew of my own ideas, and the thing that cheers you up is that when you feel down and as if you do nothing with your life you can look at your list and smile and see how much you've ticked off as big or as small they are, give yourself an aim of how many things you want to tick off per month then write a blog about each experience, share it with others.
Save your concert & movie tickets in a photo album, save the good memories.
It might not work for you but it does for me and is definitley worth a try. You might not appreciate yourself but someone might appreciate you whether you appreciate that fact or not. | |
You die Janet, thats what happens next.
I left my job and now am not getting a good enough job.
And above all I think I could have done everything right if I have
taken few courageous decisions. I hate my family. I have me, my life and want to leave my husband.
I Want to die...
When someone is depressed the last thing they want to do is tell someone they care about how unhappy they are or lonely ...
They just want to know you care and you took the time to say hey I am thinking about you .
Words are powerful and it can bring life or death ...
This world we live in , no one seems to have time for anyone and there in a big rush but at the end of the day what it so important that you forgot to say Hi , how are you I have been thinking about you and I hope your doing ok I miss you .
Holidays are the number one time that people commit suicide because they are alone . I think if the poor old people who are stuck in the nursing homes who family's forget or to busy to stop by and spend precious time with them .
There sad eyes tell you the story and it makes my heat break .
No one is forgotten in the eyes of the Lord this is why so many people love him because he is the only one who will take the time and love you and help you heal the pain and give you inner strength that no man or woman can do alone .
Don't be so hard on yourself learn from it and be a friend to a stranger smile , give thanks to all God gives you .
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