So well let me start at the fact that all through elementary and high school i had a real difficult time with friends. I then went onto college where i was having a great time .. Then in my 2nd year of the 3 year program i found out i was pregnant. The father of the baby and i had come to the agreement to keep the baby (and he is now the love of my life i do not know what i would do without him) my parents were very upset with me and didnt want me to. I thought the father of the child really did love and care about me he really seemed to. Now he lives in an area that is not the best .. and we have been there for sometime now but i have refused to be there because im nervous in the area. And you would think someone would make the move out of the area to help the situation but instead he doesnt care. He says we will move in a year. But also says now if i had stayed there with him we would have moved by now. He never tells me anything i have to assume everything and try to make everyone happy .. I am so hurt .. things are just so out of hand we scream and fight so much about moving .. he doesnt care at all .. im so alone im so in pain .. i am not loved by any means .. he feels i have done nothing ... and i feel i do alot and as much as i can do .. he lost is and punch the car windshield smashed it .. with our 10 month old on his lap .. i want things to get better .. i want that feeling of being loved and cared for i want to be someones everything i want someone to want to do for me just cause they love and trust me .. and i do not see that in this relationship its completely unfair .. i really would love to die or be murdered to say the least.
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