i'm 21 i don't work , don't drive basically i don't have anything going for me right now,i don't have much friends, really i only got 2 good ones.i have low self esteem and hate the way i look , i'm working so hard to lose weight and i think its working.i came from a foreign country when i was 4 yrs old , my parents broke the law because they over stayed their visa so i don't have any legal status in the usa which is why i can't work or drive. to add insult to injury i didnt find any of this out until was 17 and asked my mom y i couldnt work after skool and she finally told me. my father went back home when i was nine yrs old so its just been my mother taking care of me and my older brother,then he moved out when i was 13.mom had to get a second job so i was always home alone , its sad when you've become used to being lonely and not having anyone to talk to . anyways the only way i can be legal is to marry an american citizen which isnt as easy as it sounds when every man you meet wants to just have sex with you, i developed a sex addition when i was 18 because i finally got tired of being lonely so i went to man to man having sex even got some std's because of it.finally i realize i needed to stop and i found a man that i thought i could love and would love me back and be there for me and even marry me, but know i don;t even know if that's the case anymore i haven't seen him in a 2 months and . my friends tell me that he's cheating on and i need to dump , but what they don't understand is that i'm tired and just want to be married and be done with dating . honestly i sometimes think about going back home because i don't see the point of staying here , the only reason i am still here is because i'm hope that my bf still wants to marry me. | |