I assume most that read this will be young. I am 26, male.
2 years ago I fell in love, my first love. I am talking absolutely blinded by love. We are perfect for each other, we spent literally almost every minute together we could. We moved in together, and started to plan life together. Amazing plans, about traveling, money, all of life. We see life the same way, the same aspirations.
I was sooooo happy to have somebody in my life to say "I love you" "I'll love you forever" "Goodnight baby, I love you"
One day, she told me she might be a lesbian. I was,...shocked. But, I love this woman more than I think anybody could love anyone. I wanted to help her and let her know its ok no matter what she feels.
Well months went by and the "might" turned to "i am lesbian". And then that followed with "when are you moving out?" "I don't like guys" "When you come near me I pull away" "Im getting antsy when are you moving?"
I now see that she is a selfish bitch for making me feel like a used tampon waiting to be thrown to the curb in a garbage bag.
Life is fucking crazy kids. Shit will happen to you that you will never know how to handle, and you can't talk to anybody. You just have to accept it and move on.
As for love, fuck it. Its fake. You make it in your head, and it goes on because you believe it, even when the other person feels a completely different way, but they don't tell you and just pretend. What an awful person she is.
How do you live with someone in absolute bliss with life plans ahead of you, then one day ask "when are you moving out?"
Even more, how do you deal with that when you're the one being asked?
fuck you world, im sick of it. sick of the surprise fuck overs. | |
Anyway, you will have many other loves in your life. Next time around you will know to ask the lesbian question. Are you a lesbian? Are you sure?
Hi, Whitney...it's nice to meet you. Oh, by the way, are you a lesbian, are you sure?
Yeah, if you do that you'll surely never hook up with another lesbian.
While you are at it, ask her if she's a fucked up selfish bitch. Then you'll know that too.
Good luck!
I really do.
It takes time but this soon too shall pass. Which will bring you that much closer to meeting " the one". Take care
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