I am 41 and dont know where to start. I been depressed, misrable, and Unsocial for 50% of my life, Had 1 Good friend 15 years ago, but he back stabbed me, been married 3 times. First wife was a gambling leech, 2nd wife abused and controlled me for 6 yrs (had to call police to get out of the relasionship alive). Still married to my third wife, love her but still empty and unsatified, dont know why! I got a good job about 7 months ago, but I get bullied and made fun of everyday. I went to management about it and got a written warning and yelled at in front of my co-workers. After work today I stopped at a lawyers office for advice.....Get another job was his free advice. Would love to, but no jobs to get. so now I have to do my job wile doing others crap and put up with a superviser who threatens to beat my ass every 2-3 hours cause he is lazy, tried to get him to hit me but he just runs up to the boss and writes me up for not "doing what I'm told". Sad part about it, every job I have ever had has been like this, i dont fit into anything. I never have and never will. The worst thing is, i find myself sharpening large knives and trying to figure out how to sneek them into work. The thought of dancing in the "bullies" blood acually make me happy. Please kill me before I'm another murder Suicide on the news!