im 27 years old, never had a girlfriend, still a virgin, im very smart but english has always held me back, i could not go to college full time while holding a full time 40+ hr a week job to pay for it, dropped out of college and have yet to earn a livable wage, still live with my mother, have no friends, been unemployed for the past 20 months, started experimenting with drugs after my brother(the person i look up to) was almost killed some 5 years ago, all the "friends" i use to have all stabbed me in the back or used me to get what they want. since my unemployment i started taking more drugs to stay calm and to not be so damn depressed, now i can not take any because i am a raging homicidal maniac who will kill at the first chance i get if i were to let myself into society and i can not control my anger any more | |
Do you not know drugs will destroy you not help you ?
Here a thought ..
Your not working so why no go back to SCHOOL !
Go to school on line if you can't go in person .
Why not use your free time and volunteer and help someone who has nothing !!
By you helping someone in return they will be helping you ..
It's a win win
You are feeling sorry for yourself and look what is happening to your life .
Your life is going down hill real fast .. is this what you want ?
You have 2 choices in life !
Self pity = self distrust
or
help others = helping yourself
Don't you dare hurt your mother for she is the only one who has put up you . I read so many bad news on line when someone hates them self and takes others down with them .
If you feel like your going to explode then get yourself some help !!
Make better choices you can do it you just need to turn your anger around and use that fire to make your life better !!
You need to seek the Lord for he will give you the strength from inside . The devil whats you to destroy yourself and anyone around you .
As God says choose life , you are here on this earth for a reason .No one ever said life was going to be easy but you see your taking the easy way out by taking drugs and blaming life so grow up and stop making excuses . We all have problems it's the strong ones who never give up and fight everyday to live right and face whatever comes there way and not run away and hide because you know what life will still find you . You can't hide for long .
Pick up the holy bible and change you way of thinking
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