LIFE SUCKS

betrayed

my life was good really good i met the man of my dreams got married moved to a new area and made loads of new friends, every thing was perfect until little things started to go wrong i found out that my husband was talking to ex-girlfriends and signing on to dating sites my friends help me through the rough we would just back on track and i would find out that he has signed on to another and another, we worked through our problems and he told me i was the one he wanted he don't know why he did what he did and it all stopped we were back on track on track then we hit some money troubles so i moved away to work and clear our debt i came home as often as i could and one weekend i decided to surprise him he didn't know i was coming home we had a wonderful evening and the next day my world was shattered my husband raped me i didn't know what to do so i went to my friends for help they were brilliant but the next day they all accused me of lying about it and as i had time to think about it i decided the best thing was to let them beleave it was a lie i am still with my husband 8 months after the rape and i have no friends as they all turned their backs on and more money troubles then i would like but i just don't know what to do anymore i love him but at the same time a part of me just wants everyone to know the truth, i also know i want to protect him because if hes friends knew what has happened they will kill him so i guess i just need to carry on as normal and pretend that my life is great.