I'm 29 no kids and no prospects, I was raised in a military family where I love you was something only heard in movies. I'm the youngest of 4 and the only boy needless to say my parents had no problem letting me know what kind of disappointment I was everyday. I was always a bit reclusive in my younger years which led to not having many friends on top the fact we moved on a regular basis. When I was 17 I did a lot of LSD, which only caused a studder when I spoke and actually made me not want to be around people. The hardest things for me these days are watching what friends I do have start families, hell I'm good looking with a decent job but life just won't fall in place for me. The closest I came to happiness was with the love of my life. I completely self destructed that relationship with cold feet. Now I live in regret for leaving her and her son like I did. The worst was I hurt that little boy that loved me so much, I think this is a proper punishment for hurting those two very special people. I've lived a rough life nothing ever came easy, life is just hard. It's those who push on through all obsticals against all odds to be better, to strive for happiness. If you get off your pity parades and make positive changes your bound to never be lonely. Believe no one wants to be around someone that's depressed all the time. Don't lay blame on your parents even if they were shitty or how hard things were growing up. Were all individuals that make our own choices. It's your choice to be alone or not. | |
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