LIFE SUCKS

Discouraged

I have been reading a few books about the importance of energy and how to set up sort of a "blockade" to thwart off negative energy. I find that whenever I am reading these books, that thinking positively about your current situation is much easier said than done.
I lost my job a couple of days ago because about 2 weeks ago my boss hired his mistress to run the place and disrespect us by demanding us around. I finally had enough of her condescending attitude towards me and my coworkers and stood up for myself and basically because of that I was terminated (to make a long story short).
The job was nothing special to me because it was in the food industry which is fine but I had grown tired of working in food a long time ago however it was the only position that I could get 5 months ago. Still, it would have been nice to work for employers who viewed me as a human as opposed to a robot.
Now I currently have just the one job where I am getting minimum wage and only 2 shifts a week to work.

My bank account is really starting to shrink now and I have student loans to pay back.

I would like to know when things are going to start to look up. I spent four years in college only to get out, go through numerous of interviews and only get hired by food service employers even though I sent hundreds of apps and resumes to entry level positions pertaining to my major and office clerk positions.

Not only that, but I'm living with my mom again. I love my mom and I am very thankful but I dreamed of having my own after graduating college. I have been working since I was 16 and one would think that I would have a good bit of money saved up but everytime I save money, my car breaks down with a major problem.

It is so difficult for me to appreciate the now when it seems that everything is going the complete opposite of how I dreamed it would go at 23.

I feel selfish because there are people going through hardships much worse but sometimes it's just hard to really smile.