I was reading these stories, some of them are really depressing, the others are just plain stupid. Here's what's going on with me:
I'm studying to be a doctor. unfortunately, that's the last thing i wanna be. i wanted to be an actor, or a musician. my parents want me to be a doctor, and since they're supporting me, that's basically what i have to do. So the professional part of my life is fucked up.
I've never had a girlfriend. When i was a kid, i was this arian, cute little boy, and my mom's friends would all say that i was going to be a heartbreaker(i know that they would say that even if i was fugly). i think that kinda went up to my head, and so i'm extremelly picky. The problem is I'm a 19 year old virgin now, and i still have kind of a baby face, and i guess girls don't dig that. the thing is i know i could get a lot more girls if i got the courage to talk to them out of the blue, but in my head, doing that is just plain stupid, and i can never do it.
The friend part of my life is good. i have some really close friends, and a lot of normal friends, but i'm kind of they go to guy to make fun of. I know they like me, but it just became kind of a habit, and i never stopped it. i think it affects my image to girls a lot, because i'm just this guy that keeps being made fun of.
the worst part is my home life. My parents make go to fucking medical school, which i fucking hate, and they still yell at me for not studying, even though i passed 6 out of 9(i know it's not perfect, but it's not bad either). I come home to my depressing mom, my anger-troubled, lunatic dad and i keep getting yelled at for pratically everything i do(the other day, my father called me a no-good low-life because of a tiny scratch on his bike that took him 3 days to notice). i just don't know what to do | |
There is nothing wrong with your brain.
You are grown, go MOVE OUT & persue whatever the heck you want. Stop hiding behind your parents skirts. You avoid standing up for yourself & making your own decisions, because quite simply you are co-dependent on blaming others or have absolutely NO self belief.
OK so you may not be an actor or a musician~ Have you ever thought you are looking at those jobs in the "fame industry" for some kind of "belief" in yourself. Believe me you can be Justin Beieber tomorrow & you will still be in the same place as far as esteem.
No matter docteur or chicken coop cleaner, you need to stand up. If you stand up for yourself nobody is going to be able to push you around. You want to keep in fetal position, then expect your semi abusive parents to keep kicking you as you have done NOTHING yet to prove you can look out for yourself. Same goes for girls. At your age they want to have fun, when you hit about 25+ then they take you more serious... But if at 21-24 you are still in fetal position you will get nothing but a bunch of UNHEALTHY girls that are curling up next to you. You want quality & balance you have to go through the life. 19 have fun, & start making some choices by yourself & follow through til you a. love it & succeed, or B you find a better option that you are happy with.
Then I moved out. Within seven years, I worked my way through a community college, transferred to an Ivy League School - okay screw it this is anonymous - Columbia University, went on to get a Masters degree at Columbia, married a super-rich heiress who kind of drives me crazy now, but whatever, I'm a spoiled moody person.
Move out, it'll give you character and freedom.
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