My Kids Dad is abusive, He calls me the bitch. When he doesnt want to talk about somehting he screams at me and calls me Bitch. He gets angry and says I am calling him a liar so we can never sort anything out about our kids. He smashes up our house, he smashes up everything then dumps me, for 9 years he has dumped me everytime he gets angry, then I started fighting back and arguing back this year we had a fight and then he tried to commit suicide, his family think its my fault because he was always angry telling them I am such a bitch. They dont know what He has done, tried to rape me, hit me, held me down while he screams at me.Once at christmas he screamed at me for 3 days in a row and I had to cook and pretend it was fine for our kids but then he would start screaming again. Now his counsellers say its because he is depressed that he does this stuff, so I am trying to support him but he just makes me cry all the time, I fell so sad that he treats me like this when I love him and I am trying my best to be supportive and caring, I care for our kids well, he just switches on the tv for them, I cook meals help at church and try to have a circle of friends but he makes me not do things, just stay at home because he gets angry and makes me cry then I cant go out.Today is my birthday and My best friend threw me a party, I didnt go,I had to say I was sick my eyes are red swollen from crying and I keep starting to cry, he yelled at me from when he got home. I cant leave he wont let me he holds me down so I cant go.