LIFE SUCKS

boring sucky life

the thing is my life acually is really good.
i have a home, family, education, money, a dog, "friends", and all the ideals that your supposed to be happy with.

i should be thankful and happy for everything i have but i cant help to just hate everything about it. i feel so selfish for hating my life because i have it so good and others would kill to live even remotely like me. i dont know why i hate this lifestyle so much but i do. i thought about running away or dropping out of school or not going to college or something because i hate this type of : school, college, job, family, death; cycle type of routine living.
im board, miserable, fitting in, and pretty much meaningless as of now, life
i obviously want to change but in todays society its like your going to become homeless and fail miserable if you dont do what everybody else is doing (college/job/family)

i know many people would think im a brat or self-centered or something but as hard as i try i just cant make myself be happy with who i am....and i have no idea how to change that without disappointing everybody and even myself.....

so i jsut accept how much my life sucks and dont do anything to change it which makes me hate my life more b.c. i know i could