I've dug myself a hole so deep, the more I try to climb out - the deeper I'm burried down.
During my senior year of high school I was a normal happy person. I became friends with a girl that introduced me to partying, had unprotected sex while wasted, which led to an abortion, which led to depression and more partying, which led to weight gain.
Luckily I've never done drugs or I'd be worse off.
I tried to live on my own from 18-22, was constantly living paycheck to paycheck for years. On my 21st birthday I got a DUI which ruined a year of my life. I ended up leaving the state of Idaho because I was unemployed, sitting my my apartment being a total loser. So I upped and moved to Missouri thinking if I move in with my grandma I'll get my life together.
I still have a warrant have for my arrest because I didn't get all my stuff dont for my DUI.
I've lived in Missouri for almost 2 years. I recently lost my full time job, my second part time job, my car got repoed, I live in my grandma's basement, I haven't went out a SINGLE time since I've moved here, and now my grandma wants to kick me out. I don't get along with the rest of my family, we don't even speak. No job, no money, no friends.
The one best friend that I did have in Idaho texted me on my 23rd birthday and told me she Thought I am bipolar and that I need help. So now I officially have not a single person in my life.
I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to convince my grandmother to stay here until atleast next summer.
This is the lowest point of my life. I've pondered suiside but I don't believe in it, it's not for me. I just NEED something to please go right. Please.