hello, i read ur stories and i must admit they really horrible, im so sorry
im 32 male, only male child with seven sisters all of them are married and most of them live near, yet everyone of them has an agenda, MONEY! they never really call to ask me how um doing or anything like that very superficial,
my parent are good hearted God fearing people, very simple they worked hard all their lives and still do (by choice) because they are very simple; people take advantage of this! i cant leave them alone im stuck with them! and i really hate this. they drive me crazy! they re-planned all my life, build me a house on top of their house! got me out of school when i was in the 4rth grad so i dont move away or travel, they even picked me a wife and i went through with it, but it failed, they pre named my unborn children, life bored me so much, i cant enjoy anything, have no energy, been on antidepressant for years, i turned to dugs and alcohol, i stopped using drugs after i got arrested, i still drink like a fish and i really hate this, stopped many times but always go back because my life becomes unbearable,
i cant keep friends, people come up to me all the time but after few meetings i never see them again, i think i scare them or make them uncomfortable. i have no intrest in anything! tried sucide many times never worked, cant keep a girl friend because im never on time and i just wanted them to leave me alone! i tried gay sex dating sites and had no trouble getting dates went like this for two month, then stopped it wasnt my thing.
I dont know what to do NOTHING INTREST ME! I feel im wasting life away feel very guilty about this
And i make my parents very unhappy and this kills me but i cant help it
i dunno whats wrong with me, why am i like this? i have good things going for me good money, sport car, good health, nice house i cant seem to be able to enjoy any of them