LIFE SUCKS

I fucking hate everything about my life

My life has been nothing but a lie. I was raised by parents who hated each other but in front of everyone else acted like the perfect couple. My dad was in politics so being fake came natural. My mom became obsessed with politics when elections would happen so she also was fake as fuck. So fast forward to when I'm 18 years old. My dad has been the DA for 4 years. Literally out of nowhere he gets arrested during one of his court hearings. I get called into the superintendents office thinking I was about to get offered a football scholarship from somewhere only to find out my dad was being put in prison. To make shit worse I played in a basketball game the same day and completely fucked my ankle up with only like 5 seconds left in the game. It was the worst day of my life.
So for the next 6 months my dad stayed at my grandmas house on house arrest before being taken to prison. Since he was a DA and his arrest involved drugs his story was a buzz across the media. I had paparazzi people taking pictures of me and my last moments with my dad before he was being taken away. Even MSNBC came to our house trying to do a "story" on it. What pissed me off the most was my mom absolutely loved all of the attention.
When my dad was first arrested he called my mom telling her that he was going away for awhile and that they needed to get a divorce so that she could keep her possessions. She acted like she was straight from Hollywood crying and saying I love you and all of that good stuff. Literally 3 days later was saying fuck him and telling the worst possible dirt she had on my dad to the newspapers for everyone to read. It was humiliating. Being from a small town where everyone knows who you are made it that much worse.
After he went to prison and I graduated high school all I wanted to do is get as far from home as possible. So I went to a college about 9 hours away. Most of my contact with my friends an family was lost so I started becoming depressed. I wasn't making friends and I was having trouble talking with people I didn't know. My grades also never were good and I soon was diagnosed with a learning disability add. Well I followed the doctors instructions and tool adderal everyday and soon every day was nothing but feeling like I was in my own world. I didn't talk to people, when I did I felt jumpy and nervous all of the time. After a while I stopped taking my medication because of how it was making me feel. Then my grades started suffering again. Life was becoming worse by the day.
So now here I am, 5 years into college, I just transferred back to a school closer to home. Now it's gonna take even longer to graduate. I have felt confused, lost, and now don't know where my life is taking me. U am suffering from depression, add, social anxiety, and I'm pretty sure I am bipolar since my dad is and it is a genetic disease. It makes sense because social anxiety goes with bipolar disorder. I hate life, can't get a job, can't talk to people, go to class, really do anything without feeling uncomfortable and nervous and anxious. I am sick of it. I fucking hate my life!