I am 57 male,without a single friend in this world.But,god has been good to me always.Looking back,I can see the blunders I have been through.I used to masturbate a lot even when I was a very small kid.It used to give a sort of comfortable pleasure after.I used to stammer a lot,and that made me the laughing stock and object of being ridiculed by everyone,small and big people alike.My father was a stern man,who had never really given us anything like other peoples dad,but is quick to scorn and scold and beat me everytime he gets a chance.By the time I crossed my 18th age I cannot control my desire for a physical sexual relationship with a woman.And thus I got involved with a widow 10years my senior.Even from the first experience itself,I found out this is the only real pleasure I got in my life,and I hung on to her for 7 years.She too was willing,so much so that,I can go and have her any time and place I feel like.Even in a conservative society like mine,I used to signal her to come out when there are guests around,and make her come to the toilet where I will be waiting.I have even made her masturbate me in the midst of other family members without their knowledge.She was ready for everything.But the day I got married,I stopped going to her,and she too got the message.
But,now,after all these years,I am getting old,and as already mentioned,without a single friend in life,no one to talk to even when wife goes to work,I am tired and disillusioned with the world.I cannot get along with people at all,I desperately need something to do in daytime.But what,I dont know.How to make people like you,and accept you. | |
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