LIFE SUCKS

Shitty life

I have no life and no real friends. I am overweight and unattractive. I am in high school and everyday I watch other people walk around and enjoy their lives with their friends. People know me, but just as the fat kid who makes an occasional joke. I used to have friends, but when we got to high school it's like I didn't exist. So i just sit at home everyday with my parents and I know they think I'm a loser. I watch my past friends walk through the hallway with their girlfriends and people I wish I could know. I completely lack any form of a social life, but my grades are still very poor. I most likely won't get into college with my mediocre grade and complete lack of extra circulars. I did get a 32 on my ACT and that is what gives me the faintest sliver of hope in life. I just pray college is better (if I can even go) and I can actually have some real relationships. I want to get intimate with a girl someday, but it worries me that I only have a 4 inch penis and it looks even smaller compared to my fat body. God dammit I hate every thing about my life. I have no hopes and aspirations for life and I believe I am suffering from severe ADHD and depression, but my parents don't think those are real issues and I should just "toughen up" and "work harder." I would just get high all day, but I feel even worse about sitting around and doing that alone. I know I might sound like a typical adolescent bitch but shit I just needed to vent and I could care less if this shit is grammatically correct.