LIFE SUCKS

Life Is A Shit Hole that is ruled by evil

I believe I have a life that would probably outdue many of you.

I was "with" this girl for 13 years (never married). She got pregnant about 7 years into our relationship. It wasn't until 2.5 years after my beautiful little girl was born that I came to find out she wasn't mine. My ex fucked around and continued to lie to me for 2.5 years me believing she was really mine.

My ex basically had me by the balls. If I left her, I would probably never see my precious daughter again. Being a father is MUCH more then blood. I could not walk away from her since I had no legal rights to have any custody and I loved her more then life itself--that's where she had me by the balls. My ex kept in contact with the real father during that time of pregnancy and birth, lying to HIM that she was living with her parents in California.

So, with history repeating itself, and knowing she had me by the balls, she once again fucked another guy 6 years later and became pregnant. Again, she lied to me for 9 months thinking that that baby was mine. Oh, and by the way, did I tell you that I named this new little baby to be? I actually walked into the hospital when she was giving birth (which was happening in the middle of the night when she drove herself to the hospital to give birth. Obviously, fucking pissed, I showed up at the hospital and what did I see? The guy that was fucking her was her coach giving birth to the baby. But believe it or not I still didn't want this to be the truth. No one could do such or horrible thing to a person once let alone twice, right? After about a week the words finally came from her mouth that the baby wasn't mine. I literally hit the floor in shock. Not soon after that I kicked the sick fuckhead bitch out of my house. Luckily she has stayed in the area and see my first "daughter" that I love dearly on a regular basis. This bitch is trully warped/sick.

Since then, I have been tempted several occasions to leave this shitty world in hopes of being at peace. The pain is unbearable day after day which no counselor/psychiatrist can take away. But because of my beliefs and the love I have for my daughter I cannot do that. There's not a day that goes by that I don't want to take a full bottle of klonopin and end it. The fucked up bitch has no fucking clue how many lives she effected because she is a selfish sociopath.

To those of you that think you had such a rough life with "girl" or "guy" problems, take this and run with it. I have yet to find anyone to beat this story--and I don't wish such a thing on my worst enemy.