I was raised by my depressed mother and father with paranoia,depression, schitzophrenia,and bipolar disorder. They always got into fights and he hit me,but she never did anything about it. They would use golf clubs,hangers, knives, whatever they could find to fight with. I always tried to protect my mom. I have never talked to my dad seriously, hes an asshole. I will never forgive him for abusing me and my siblings. My family has problems every week still, there divorce has gone on for a year,he wants everything from her. My siblings grew older and forgive him for what he did and invite him to family events,even if i refuse to go. He tries to give me money because he thinks thats the way to be a father. I take advantage of every penny he has, seeking revenge for his abuse. As a child i was overweight. People would bully me all the time and say how fat and ugly i was,how yellow my teeth were and would stick things in my hair or wisper about me.I was made fun of and had no friends, I would cry on the swings during playtime and finally got a friend,but she would threaten to physically hurt me if i stopped being friends with her. i made friends who backstabbed me after that in high school. My mom was sick and had surgeries (she still is in a bad place) so i had to leave school to feed her and it would make my friend mad,finally she started hating me because I "copied" her and followed her around stores. i lost all my friends because of her saying crap about me. I always seem to run into them.I worked hard to get into an amazing college,it took me two years, only to not go because i couldnt afford it because my parents made too much money for me to get funds, and wouldnt pay. I suffer depression because my family constantly has issues. My mom has told me how much she hates me and wishes i wasnt born,even though she denies saying it. She also says I never took care of her,which is a lie. All my friends got into drugs so i only have two friends. One friend used me and hasnt talked to me since. I have a boyfriend but hes a porn addict and is interested in other girls i found out two weeks ago. I have stres worrying about what he is doing all the time and fear that i have to leave him and move out. I constantly have health problems due to stress,anxiety,and a skin condition. My mom constantly drags me into her divorce and talks crap about me. | |
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