I'm being too self absorbed here. After reading some of the posts I actually feel similar too many of you. I'm 42 male married with a wonderful wife. My family have always regarded me as the lost one(LOSER). Anytime during family gatherings I always felt judged or looked upon in a certain perspective that is uanappealing. Not for any real reason it just happened that way. There are ones in the family that can do NO wrong and there is me that tries to do everything right and when I do its not acknowledged but when I make a mistake or soemthing goes wrong, well isn't that just typical of him. That is because these people talk negative of me because I've always been the one with the biggest heart and the easiest to target. I'm not a victim, I'm just a target and the protagonist. Because of this I've been depressed most of my life but I am to blame... I'm the one ultimately responsible for where my life is and where I've ended up. Procrastination, empty promises to myself and others, lack of motivation all these things come from depression. But how does one take on the form of depression? How does one become clinically depressed. I'll tell you! By caring too much... Caring too much of what people think and the thoughts of others become my (your) false beliefs. People who dislike you especially family members are a waste of time for you to prove anything too. The best way to remedy these problems is to walk away and stop caring about them. Forgive them meaning you telling yourself, I know they are ignorant of who I am and not let it hurt your heart. I've taken a hit just recently but 2012 is around the corner. And for you my pained brothers and sisters I would like to make an example of myself by making the changes I need to for the greater good of my life and my happiness. I will share with you. When you stop caring and worrying what other people think of you, you then become stronger. When you don't respond to their attacks the way you used to they begin to look at you differently. Ignorance is silenced with silence. Don't respond to anyone don't care and laugh if you can. I may be a target for them to try to attack but from this day forward I will be a moving target as they continue to miss their mark they will eventually give up and now they will have a reason to dislike me and I don't care. They are a waste of my time trying to win their respect because they have no respect for themselves.
See you in two months stay strong get motivated lets finally take life by the balls. | |
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