I am a 31 year old male. I have been to college and graduated. When I was done with college I still did not know what I was supposed to do with my life, so I decided that I should be keep going with my education. This led me to going to law school.
I attended law school for 3 years until I realized that I could not be a lawyer. Of course at that point I was already buried under literally a mountain of student loan debt. At this time I was in love with my girlfriend who then left me when I told her that I was not going to be a lawyer.
All of this happened almost 4 years ago now. Since, that time I have filed bankruptcy to get rid part of my debt though I am still buried under the student loan debt that I can not get rid of. And to be clear by buried I mean BURIED to the tune of $140,000. I will literally never be able to pay this debt off. I work in retail full time because it is the only job that I can find and I make barely enough money to pay my rent, bills, and put food on the table.
I used to date often and have had many girlfriends in the past but yet I have not dated anyone in nearly 4 years. I am so incredibly lonely. I don't hang out with many of my friends anymore because they have either got married and started families or they have fallen into drugs or alcohol.
I put on a good face to everyone that sees me at all which consists of my family and the people at work. Everyone seems to think I got my act together and things under control but that couldn't be further from the truth.
I am just so depressed about my finances and more than that lonely. I am so utterly lonely. I just wish there was a reset button I could press to go back 10 years ago so I could do some things differently. Because at this point I just don't know what to do. . .