I'm 17 and I met my mom 2 yrs ago. Weird aint it? Well. She was a big time casino player, and my dad is an asshole who made me then left. I never met him. And i would never want to. He is a drug addict. Today's my birthday and it sucks coz i'm alone. It's not that im a loner or some shit. Im a smart dude, straight As. And so todays the last final day. Half day. 2 tests. I exempted the 2nd one coz i wanted to get home early. Nothin special. I just want to take a rest. I called my parents and they told me that i have to wait. Now here i am. People like me who exempted already left and i was left alone outside, cant go back in and its fucking cold. I also realized that my parents dont give a shit about my birthday, i dont have money. I dont have a car so im probably staying at home, listen to my ipod, workout, or some shit like that to keep myself busy. I dont have a girlfriend since the last 3 yrs. girls dont think im cool and im not good with girls. Basically means no girl for me.
My friends only know me when they need me like copying homeworks and tests. Then after that it feels like they dont even know. Im like their bitch. I have a big family and they always fight because of money. My mom stopped playing casino and now she makes a lot of money, though she wont give me. All i asked for is fucking headphone and guess what? Well you already know why. I moved to texas with my uncle and every 3 months, my mom would give my uncle $300 for the food and stuff that we need. $300?! Me and my brother? Come on! Its not even enough for me!She doesnt want me to find a job and she gives me $20 a week, like im an elementary. Im a good guy specially at home and i di what they ask for, i never yelled at them or did anything stupid. I get straight As and all i get is this. I dont deserve this, i think.
I dont really do this shit. I just feel like im mad and angry. So i decided to do this on my phone. Cant feel my fingertips coz its cold. School is over in an hour so i guess ill have to wait. I shouldve just taken the test and make a 103 score like i did on my last 2 tests. My message is more like a suicidal note. All i have to do is to kill myself after sending this to public. lol. Well, i hope that my winterbreak could be fun atleast a little. Coz with this sadness, i feel like im dying from a disease. Slowly killing me. Sorry if my english is bad. But its not important as long as you understand some of it or somewhat relate to my story. Thats all! I hope that your lives are not like mines. Happy holidays! | |
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