I worked hard to get what I have, a single mom, I worked my butt off to finally move up in the corporate world, buy a house, take our first family vacation. To get cancer and have everything thrown away. Now I may lose my home, and no one to help, no person,county or organization. I have two part time jobs that suck, and it doesn't pay the bills, and I'm a student. My brother got leukemia and I was his caregiver until he died watching as his wife didn't visit him in the hospital and started seeing someone else. Then my dog died, and I thought how can I keep the Christmas spirit? So I tried and went to my moms, where all of us siblings gather. The topic of my brothers widow came up from my other brother.( who is friends with her) and I said sarcastically she is a hoe. He got mad and defended her, a woman who won't let anyone see my brothers kids. He called me a bitch in front of my grandson. I finally decided I'm not pretending anymore. I lost it , started crying and told him all I wanted was for Him to be a brother, since I had already lost one. Even though years ago this brother told me that he didn't love me or my sister or care about us. I still tried. My mom, step dad, sister and brother just sat and stared at me not saying a word. I sat and cried, not one I'm sorry, or hug, anything. My family has always been dysfunctional, we are supposed to pretend everything is fine and don't make anyone Mad. so by expressing my feelings, I have defied the family roles. My daughters have never like my family functions either, and I have yet to tell them we ate soon to lose our home. So you work hard, love others and treat others how you want to be treated give of yourself and I sit here Christmas day at home. But I would rather be here with my family, then with my extension and have learned thAt staying away is the best for me no matter how disturb g or sad it is bc it is best for me. Yeah, my life sucks big time. And I am going to have a personal pity party for one day!