I have no future. I am 28 going on 29 and I graduated college in last May in Broadcast Journalism. In case you didn't know...media is not one of the best fields at the moment. I have only had ONE interview for my course of study since graduation and I turned it down b/c I was "guaranteed" a better job. Well, the other job didn't happen b/c of the economy but fortunately I had found a great job many months later. Everything was going really well until they had to lay-off employees and me being new meant I was gone. That was in January and still I haven't found anything; well that is anything that would support me. I have been in a downward spiral since.
I use to be a very positive person, mostly b/c my family is very supportive, but b/c of my situation I keep looking to myself to blame for everything turning out the way it has. I mean...look how pathetic my life is right now:
1. I am an unemployed 28 year old.
2. I moved back in w/ my parents.
3. I have not been in a relationship since college (not that I would want to deal with that at this moment).
4. I have a worthless degree.
I am not really enjoying life right now, especially when I look at the lives my family and friends are living. Mine is that of a small fraction of theirs. I constantly feel embarrassed about how things have turned out, even more so when I think about the opportunities I have had throughout the years. I have ruined everything and now the future looks bleak.
I am strongly considering joining the Naval Reserves, in fact I have a scheduled test Tuesday and physical Wednesday, in hopes that I can go back to school (again, unfortunately) for a more meaningful degree. I really don't want to join but I see no other way out?
I am a dreamer...and I believe that this way of thinking makes matters worse but I know no other way.