I'm 37 and my life is so utterly confusing. I have all these symptoms of an adult survivor of child sexual abuse, yet I have no memory of the event. I was emotionally abandoned growing up; fending for myself while my family yelled at each other. This went on daily for years! I can't stand confrontation. I can't stand up for myself for fear of triggering more confrontation. I serve as a mediator for everybody else without thinking about my own needs. I am working and improving myself, but I feel like by the time I get my shit straight I'll be 70 years old. I wish I could just start over :( | |