LIFE SUCKS

Jobless

Life was really going smooth when suddenly I flunked in my 11th standard exams. I was in Science stream which was my favorite. I got the seat via donation but I really wanted it badly, for me marks were not a concern. But I don't know why I wasn't able to clear my 11th. Later I somehow landed in my 12 th and again flunked. This was getting ridiculous, I was like a fool my friends cleared the exams by copying and still I don't know why I was trying to be mr good. I had given up hopes to clear my 12th. I had joined some computer classes in which I was really good so I had decided that I wanted to be a programmer. But I was 12th fail so I decided to do my diploma in computers. Surprisingly I fared well in it infact I scored and got admission via cap directly to Btech IT. I was very happy things were going as planned my project was codes by me and not bought and even participated for state level expo. The same was in my degree where I developed my project myself while my group members watched me do all the work. Infact they scored more than me in project. That was so bad that too from Mumbai university. Even after all this I couldn't sit for placements in many companies. Maybe the companies were on a lookout for grooms to marry. What has age got to do with a job? I got into a company but they have delayed the date of joining and I'm sitting at home spending my dads hard earned money. I have wasted 5 yrs of my life. I am 25 when I should be 20. My friends are already working and I can't face them. I don't have a girl friend like my friends do. Who the hell will marry me when I don't have a job? Sometimes I feel being good is if no use people just take advantage of it. I cry almost every night I don't visit social networking sites since people post status of their successful life. It's just that I am unable to get my family running. It's not that i chose the wrong field I'm really good in it but god knows why he is playing around with my life ;(