Well it all started when I was born....Mom was sixteen, dad was seventeen. My mom and dad were married but dad cheated and then they got a divorce. I was young then. My Mom remarried to a man that seemed nice enough, turns out he came from an alcholic family and had mental issues. They fight constantly. He's not the greastest role model for a boy trying to become a man. I have two sisters and a brother, all younger than me. Sometimes..all the time I feel like I was the practice test. My step dad loved my oldest sister more than the rest of us and so my mother blamed her for their marriage problems. It turns out that they don't really like each other, my mom and my dad. They stayed together for us kids. Guess we weren't screwed up enough yet. My middle sister hates our family and hardly never comes around. My youngest brother still lives at home even though he is 22 and has a daughter and is not married. I got married thinking that would make me happy, turns out I,m in love with my wife , its just more stress and problems. I have a 9 month old son who is great. A week ago I lost my job and went from 90k per year to 0 overnight. I bought a new house in December and have a MOUNTAIN of debt that i'll never be able to pay for in three lifetimes. My jeep is geeting repoed soon. I have $7 in my checking account and no innsurance for my family. Today I cut two fingers off on a table saw. Went to the hospital with no money and no innsurance and no job. Who knows how much more this will cost. I have failed my wife and my son. Everyday my life gets a little worse. I lost my wifes bicycle on the interstate two days ago. It feel off the back of my van. I have no prospects on a job and a house note due in less than three weeks. I need to see an orthopedist to have my left had index finger amputated, but can't afford it. Can't get pain pills because again, money. The goverment told me last month I owe them taxes. They call everyday. Ifilled my return for this year, but they said there going to take it. Everyday I wake up mad because I woke up. I have aniexty problems and take pills for it, but haven't been taking them lately because I can't afford the refill. I wish I were drunk right now so I wouldn't care so much! I hate my self a lot.