LIFE SUCKS

Life just sucks

I'm 25 and moved countries about a year ago. Compared to some of the stories here I guess I've got it okay - I have a steady job but that's pretty much it. My job is steady but pays me peanuts and then expects me to work overtime (for which I don't get paid extra) so they can get their projects done on time and charge the client more money. That's pretty shitty - I work overtime which they charge the client for but I don't see a cent for it. I now don't sleep well and have high blood pressure from stress at work and have to pay for medication on my shitty as salary. Too bad that work is scarce and I couldn't afford any down time from work to look for another job anyways.

All my friends live a plane ride away and my efforts to meet and socialize with new people has been pretty much in vain. Most my age seem to talk shit, live at home, have no career goals or motivation, and can't carry an adult conversation. For a while though I thought I had actually made some friends just to find out that I was being used for my car. Though I was never told this it's pretty obvious when I don't get invited to things until they need a lift to get there. So thus far I have a shitty job and no friends thus no social life.

It's in times like these that you should be able to turn to your family but my family couldn't care less. They act all concerned about my well being when I call them but I cannot remember the last time they called me. Wait I lie - the last time they called they wanted money. This is usually the only time they call and they usually leave it until last to ask me so that it looks like they called because they care. What a load of shit.

On top of this my wisdom teeth are killing me but I don't have the money to go see the dentist to have them pulled and I've been told I shouldn't take any pain killers with my blood pressure tablets so I just have to suffer through it. I also have to suffer through the migraines, stomach cramps, dizziness and being tired all the time as side effects from the tablets I have to take for my blood pressure - right now I'd prefer just to die rather than keep taking those pills.

You'd think that the fellow people at church would be kind and inviting to a new comer in the are but you'd think wrong. These are the people that I have tried to befriend and have used me or snobbed me in return. You know what? They can all get fucked. Maybe I'll just turn back to my sinners life and hang out with the supposedly WRONG people. At least they don't live at home with Mummy and have a job.