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Revenge

Posted by anonymous at January 6, 2012
Tags: 2012 January  Juvenile problems  Philosophical

It has been a year since i last post in this website.

Last time I said i wish to kill myself because of my terrible family, my backstabbing classmates/friends and now just some people in my memory that i wish to forget, my pitiful love life and me who never went to college.

Well it did not happen. Something great has happened though still i wud say my life sucks.

I will write here a summary of what happened to me from last year when i last post here.

Well at that time i was very weak because all the people around me made me so. everybody keeps bullying me and keeps telling me i am worthless, useless and they laugh at me after that. During the month of february thats 2011, i spend all my night thinking. i was reviewing all my sad and terrible past. and with those memories i have discovered something that i believe would help me escape this limbo. In my past i have proved that when im alone i can achieve great and unique things. You know when someone stares at me when im working on something i lost my focus and i cant work perfectly but when im alone i can. And also my old classmates(no longer my friends) keeps telling me at that time that i always think nonsense and i later realize they were wrong. My imagination is perfect( i am not crazy).

Soon after that i tried to talk alone, play alone, do everything alone and it makes me feel fine. Then i started to plan and pursue my dreams. My plan was to have my revenge on those who ruined my life. But before that i must have money so i need a job that needs knowledge so i can have a suitable job for me. Everyday i begun to study more about computers(more about programming coz i want to be a programmer) and i was able to learn modding video games and i love it though its kinda hard and takes a lot of time.

During that time my family is still the same. they always mess with me but this time i fight back. I am no longer the old weak me. I let my anger flow through me(i always hid my anger and hate inside me before) and i released it all though i was not on rage. My mother saw it on me and she soon realize how i hate her, how i hate them all. From that moment on she change on the way he treat me, she speaks to me now as a mother, a good mother. But i did not forgive her. i will not.

after few months i became adept in programming while learning alone. Then something good has happened. My name was on the list of the government's lucky 200 who will have a 4 year scholarship on college. THAT CHANGES ALMOST EVERYTHING!!!!!!!! At first i was shocked and felt not ready. My parents, brothers, sisters are happy too because they will get rid of me and send me to college without wasting any money. Well fuck them all!!

I have chosen computer science as my course. And i have chosen a school which is about a 100 km far from my home. since then i seldomly go home and i felt i am a few more step closer to victory! Now i am the top1 student in my class which is just my dream before!! if that dream did came true then what about the others? so i will never give up on my dream. I always believe that i can someday be one of those great persons in history. I believe in destiny and i can feel mine is significant to this world.

About my love life, well still the same. last time i promised to stop my self from loving some one and it did work,just for about 4 months. Soon then i fell inlove with a girl. I courted her and i found out that she has someone already in her heart and they have a child damn it!!!!!! That was very stupid me and i blamed myself. if i shud not love i will not feel hurt inside. yet again i fell in love again afterwards but i was not able to court her. She was very beautiful and she has a nice smile when she looks at me. i tried to get close to her but it seems she is moving away from me but she speaks nicely when im near her. I tried texting her yet i got no replies until now! I then realize the truth that she doesnt like me and i am now training myself to forget her and forget everything about love. Right now i am practicing myself not to love. I will just have to focus on my dreams

I was once a loyal servant of god and now im not. I dont believe on him but i believe in a god. A god can be any of us. A god is a smart and a strong leader(evil or good) who has many followers who worship him and that's i will become hopefully.

i might sound too ambitious and i dont care anything you say against me. My experiences defines who i am right now. Those who made my life miserable will pay. After I have all the power, i will make them all suffer, not by death coz i dont want to kill anybdy. I just want them to feel how i feel to what they did to me. I maybe evil but who is more evil? the good who became evil or the good? who made him evil. They made me evil and the evil they have created will be the one to destroy them i promise that.

My heart is full of hate and anger. i dont want to feel happiness and love. i barely hang out with my classmates now and im more focus on my studies coz i dont want to fail again.

Life still sucks but once i graduate in college my revenge will be inevitable.


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By anonymous at 02,Feb,12 03:22

Enjoy.

May your revenge in whatever form it may come in be bitter sweet.

So that not only they taste the power you have, but also you yourself with your own hands.


By anonymous at 02,Feb,12 03:51

at any time, you could forgive the people who wronged you.....you could pick up and move forward, without carrying all of the baggage from the pains of yesterday, but you refuse.....you could say, those people helped give me the drive to become who i am today....vengeance belongs to The Lord, but you don't seem to understand this......at any time, you could dust the dirt from your shoulders, wipe away the hurt from bullies with true forgiveness, but you have set your sights on revenge, and so you have destined yourself for failure......do you really think you own revenge?......are you the one who makes things?.......do you tell the fish how to swim or the bears when to hibernate?.....is it under your control that the sun rises and sets?......do you tell the oceans when to swell and the rivers when to dry?......ABSOLUTELY NOT.....but there is ONE who does....do you think He doesn't love the people whom you've vowed to revenge just as he has loved you?......the only power you have is what has been given, you said yourself that it was basically a miracle you got a scholarship.....was this not given, or did you force this to happen?.....i will tell you this, you had best pray that you NEVER FIND YOURSELF IN A POSITION WHERE YOU HAVE TO ASK FOR MERCY.


By anonymous at 02,Feb,12 08:44

Make them feel the pain by becoming better. Why not change your anger into a positive trait. BECOME A BILLIONAIRE. They'll regret everything and you'll enjoy every bit of it.Graduate college, find a job and work hard. You'll be shocked to discover that what they did to you will not matter. You'll travel the world, meet beautiful women who think you are cute, get married to a queen and forget the pain of your youth.You just need to do this. Forgive and forget. it is not worth anything to drink the poison of unforgiveness and expect your friends to die. it is killing you slowly. Move on.


By anonymous at 02,Feb,12 14:19

happy revenge day bitch


By anonymous at 02,Feb,12 15:30

Power comes with responsibilities also,,,

Once u'll learn how to forgive one,that time only u'll get actual power,


By at 02,Feb,12 19:39

Forgiveness is overrated. I'm glad you posted this. All these sheep feel like they have to forgive everyone haha.
By anonymous at 07,Feb,12 03:26

ha, all these sheep know how to MOVE ON.......someone hurt you badly, how's that working out for you??????


By at 24,Feb,12 02:34

I am the author. haha i will try to make an updated, complete and precise story of my self soon when i have the time. but right now all is going well :D. i mean revenge will take place


By smashing top seo at 24,Oct,13 10:03

65ar4y Very neat blog.Really thank you! Will read on...


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