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By anonymous at 13,Apr,10 21:08

Maybe you are afraid of failure. If you fail, just get up, find out how you can improve and start again.
I used to be jealous of people who were more popular than me, better looking, more athletic, etc. I later found out that I was actually enjoying life more than those I envied. The people I envied were actually jealous of some things about me that I took for granted!
I have learned to overcome every fear and insecurity except one: I am terrified of spiders, scorpions and other arachnids. I went to a reptile show last weekend and there was a area that you could handle and pet tarantulas and emperor scorpions. I watched others and bravely went over to face my worst fears. I actually handled live tarantulas and scorpions to help overcome my hatred of these critters.

By anonymous at 14,Apr,10 10:29

Yea I'm a good looking guy too. I had some beautiful girlfriends. only one lasted for almost 3 years and meant something. anyways, yea i felt like stabbing myself in the stomach today or what not.. i think about it every day. I feel that shyness your talking about.. it can be over come, but not all the way.. i hated school just because i'd feel nervous, paranoid, fearful, my body reacted even though i didnt want it to. my shoulders will tense up. I always had to smoke lots of pot when going to school or i'd just skip school.... All i got to say is try to find the people who are like us to befriend... I'm still trying.. i always hated going to parties/kind of, just because i'd get sorta socailly akward.. but im def not a nerd, its crazy.... at least we dont have cancer or something bad... life is really hell i think a lot of times... just get through it the best you can.... im almost 20 and i always quit my jobs i get because i cant take the anxiety being around ppl.. my face can get red and i panic a little.

By anonymous at 14,Apr,10 10:35

also, i've learned i am a very jealous person and always want to be someone else or do what they do. like a famous person or a popular kid.... i found out that many ppl who are popular and famous can be just as depressed as i am.. and commit suicide and use drugs even though they got what i think would make me happy(looks, girls, money, power).. in our country we are surrounded by that influence.. which i think is just apart of people's desire... just take down the desires that make you feel like shit.. do what makes you happy.. plus i always, well and still do listen to lots of gangster rap and always wanted to be like scarface i guess you could say or someone with power and respect... i find it much more hgelpful listeing to deep songs that i can relate to... plus dont follow religion man. just know what is right and what is wrong and make it through this "life"... always love yourself even though everything points to destroying yourself, at times anyways.

By anonymous at 14,Apr,10 10:39

just reading your story made me feel better because i'm not alone even though i kinda know that already.. it helps to be reminded... i wrote the last 2 comments.. but yea you might be surprised on my appearance and what i could be.. but yea the shyness or what ever is hard to deal with..but you know what i think a lot of girls like that.. o and i learned a lot of times.. i just want some ass.. and thats not going to do me anygood in the long run.. i like to think i am separate from my body and that i desire the wrong things a lot of times... notice those desires and it shall help.. idk

By anonymous at 17,Apr,10 13:51

I get this same feeling when i have to present in front of a class. No one else in my classes gets this same feeling. and when i try to tell someone about it they dont understand and tell me to get over it and just get up there and do it, like thats going to help me any. It's like a panic or anxiety attack for me. if i look at everyone looking back at me is when it starts usually. and also i'm extremely shy. i always have been. its so hard for me to be in relationships because i cant get over my shyness. if i'm around the few friends that i have i'm fine. but relationship wise i feel like anything i say or do will make everything go down the drain. i know i have issues with having confedence, but there really isnt anyway of getting over it. People always tell me that the more presentations you do it will get better, but it never works that way for me. half the times when i have to do a speech i just take a zero for it because i cannot get up there. i know this probably isnt any help to you. but i just wanted to let you know that you're not alone in this. i know it made me feel a little better to see your post on here.

By anonymous at 18,Apr,10 02:23

I used to be the same way. Remember learning how to ride a bicycle? Every time you fell down, you had to get up again. You will never succeed if you never try.
I saw this documentary of how Japanese businessmen are trained to overcome shyness and be able to overcome fear of failure. They go to a shopping mall and sing silly songs out loud. Songs like "Barbie girl". (look up barbie girl-aqua on youtube) After facing their worst fears, they have the confidence to overcome any problems.

By anonymous at 19,May,10 10:55

I was like that too. I pretended to be sick, cut class, or sometimes I just didn't do the project and took the F. It seems like no one understands, but it gets better - a lot better. However, it never really goes away. I can talk in front of people now, although I do blush. I used to feel exactly like you do, but now I just feel mildly apprehensive. As you grow up, you just won't care as much what people think of you, and you'll see that everyone has their own problems. As for talking to girls, my advice is to find someone who is also shy, who will find your shyness endearing. I know, you said that you can't talk to girls and hate school b/c of your shyness. This will change someday. Someday you'll learn to hide it better. Yes, life is unfair! It is! I am still a loner and I don't like to talk to people too much, but now I can. And I have friends, and I can talk to guys. I missed a lot of life but it's ok. It's my slice of the pie of unfairness, that's all.

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