When you're young, why don't your parents ever tell you life just gets harder and harder? Well, call me J, I'm 6 feet tall, blonde hair, hazel eyes and I'm homosexual. My life has never been that great. My mother is an addict, my father just feeds her addiction because he doesn't know what else to do, my entire family lives 3000 miles from me and I recently found out that I have a brother that was given up for adoption when i was 1 year old. don't get me wrong, I have great memories and I turned out to be a good person, but sometimes life feels like a sink hole I can't seem to get out of. I was recently studying to get a bachelors degree in fashion design, but found out a couple weeks ago that due to my lack of attendence I was withdrawn. So now, 2 years and 35,000 dollars later I have nothing to show for it, I can't even tell my family because I'm ashamed. Right now I work as a dancer at a night club and I make the perfect amount of money, but I hate it. My body is in pain constantly, I think I have a dislocated virtibrae, but I haven't had health insurance for over 4 years now so I can't even get myself checked out. I don't know what to do with myself. The only thing keeping me going is my boyfriend Tyler. We've been together a year and a half now and he is my rock. He reminds me to keep my chin up (which hasn't been easy lately) and to keep going, never give up...but I am giving up...slowly but surely. I'm lost. | |
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