Have no job, because I got laid off. no friends because I don't fit in with anyone, had a girlfriend 2 yrs ago, still in love with her. Currently in the process of going to trial for misdermeanors that the states making a lot of money off of me, in which i don't have. No one knows I exist, I feel both useless and lost. Why in the hell am i even here. I have no future plans, because I have no money or motivation. Why cant someone give me a million dollars like they do in the movies, or some guy off the street give me a brand new ferrari...absolutely terrified to talk to people, just because I don't want to get screwed. I can barely stand the sight of myself in the mirror, I feel abused and neglected by the world, only that everyone else is self centered and irresponsible. I live in a world filled with idiots, who some how have money, have jobs, have girlfriends, have friends. Maybe I should just say fuck it all and join them....I don't stoop low enough to get welfare because i don't believe in that, and yet for someone with nothing but a roof over my head i still have common courtest, responsibilities, and the courage to try and stay strong. I need something more than what I'm getting. I feel like I'm going crazy, I have so much to offer, and yet I'm on this website writing this stupid story. Maybe someday I'll become someone famous and be a big star...and still I bet I won't be noticed for who I really am. 18 yrs old, and already digging my own grave. Maybe I'm just to hard on myself... | |
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