Cant help but feel like the last loner on earth. I'm twenty, blew every chance i had for a relationship, and feel like complete shit. I usually question my existence and wish to just disappear. I can never commit suicide for personal reasons, so i feel trapped and doomed to a depressing life. Hate that my not virgin friends tell me its all about confidence and self esteem, none which i have and will never understand cuz I'm a virgin and they're not. Only person i can completely open up to is my therapist but i wish i knew somebody outside the counseling center. My trust issues prevent me from opening up with friends. Throw social anxiety, paranoia, and extreme sexual frustration and you get me. Fuck love everything about it....... | |
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