LIFE SUCKS

Second Fiddle

i have come to realize over the course of the last two years that god or the fates or whatever is out there has designated me to play second fiddle in everything i do. in school i am smart, but still i am second in the class. in choir i try to work hard, but no matter how much effort i put into it, i dont make the audition choirs and the special selections, while a girl in my year who isn't very good at all makes it in despite her inability to be anything more then mediocre. but the thing that really solidified my now steadfast opinion that i am the dictionary definition of second fiddle was today in practice my coach said "the other coaches and i were discussing players who would be good secondary players in the positions and your name just kept popping up." i can understand he was probably trying to tell me he thought i was a well rounded player, but it seems to me that it's all i'm ever going to amount to. the goddamn bench warmer. just in case any of our starters dont feel up to the job of hogging the spotlight you definitely on the top od the list to step in until they feel better. great, thanks coach.